Sunday, April 13, 2008

The hours when I loved love

It’s now 13th April, 2008, 03 hours 35 minutes…..

Approximately 24 hours before……

Almost Delhi was deep into silence with its people fallen asleep. I was one among the millions of people who was enjoying sleep. I usually don’t get dream while sleeping. Even if I get dream, I used to forget it the next morning. Dream comes very rarely to me. Usually dream occurs when a person falls deep asleep and the images, thoughts and feelings are experienced through it. I also know that these images are caused because of the Rapid Eye Movement (REM) which happens when a person sleeps deep.

Yes.. This is one such dream I had, probably the best of my life….

I personally don’t have a very good opinion towards Love. I was / (and partly) am not convinced with the theory of Love etc., In fact to agree I’ve had a few infatuations during my school days [which lucky I was matured enough to identify those as infatuation], but never slided towards love.

Without blah blahing much let me straight away enter into the dream. It was fine morning when she came to me. She is a friend of mine.

“Selva, can I ask you one thing?’

“haan, poocho……”

“You should give me an answer straight away.”

“haan zaroor.. kya hua?”

“Will you be my boy friend?”

Some electric shock into the mind, even before understanding what was happening there, my mouth uttered.

“I must be blessed”.

I swear I never had / have such a feel for her in real and I really couldn’t understand what's going on there. Suddenly I realized something and asked her.

“What will happen to the orkut profile wali”.

“………………..” silence was the reply…

“It’s o.k… mein bhi aaur kitne saal wait karoonga” – I replied and I had one question in my mind but didn’t ask her. [That was about her boy friend].

Me, a couple of my friends along with her were on an outing.[I don’t know how days passes so quickly in the dreams…] I could remember it was a resort where there was a long lonely road in which we all were walking, laughing loudly. Suddenly a silence persists, she came along my side and we both were walking. [I could realize that I was too shy in my dream too :D]. My mind was thinking of holding her hands but I just couldn’t do it.

Suddenly I started to feel a warmth of softness in my hands as she grabbed mine and she looked into my eyes after holding my hands, those eyes were asking me, “you were thinking of holding it na?”. With the warmth of her hands on mine and her head resting on my shoulder, I just felt love for the first time :D. I realized that “Life is more than what I’m living now”. I usually keep saying that I fly in the air, but the truth is I was flying at the moment”….. Just started to love the love :P….

We both spoke a lot of silence, the beautiful poetic walk with just eyes doing the talk…. I wanted to break the silence and start to talk, start to share but again I was shy L . She was the one to break it…..

“Selva, yeah bataoo…. What happened to __________ [her boyfriends name]?.

I replied, “Mujhe kya pata”

“I know you won't even ask :) .....mein hi batati hoon…..lekhin ab nahi.. Dinner ke baad’.... I started to expect the dinner time.....

“Selva, get up and prepare the coffee da….” – my friend Giri’s voice.

“Giri you spoiled a wonderful dream”- I uttered and tried to recollect the dream.

The hangover of the dream existed for the next couple of hours with me thinking why such a dream came to me. The concept of the dream is entirely controversial and contradictory to my thought, but then it was a dream and none can help it out.

But those hours I spent in the dream was wonderful and it will stay as a memory for ever and ever…..

11 comments:

In Serch of ...... said...

WOW Selva ....
it was one of very unusual story from you ...
Selva atleast u wrote some thing beyond "Black and White theory " "Orange and Green theory :P" ....
something for which i neeed atleast priest who can make me understand :D
so I liked the whole story because it revolved around LOVE ...
So finally Selva is evolving now :D :D :D

keep going buddy !!!!!!!!

Gouri said...

Phew! finally sumthng refreshing and different frm d heavy stuff u have been writing Selva ji. hmmm.....kaafi romanchic tha! hehe. well, whosoever she was, left a precious memory wth u 2 b cherished 4 a long time. n one advice (nt 2 offend ur feelings), no1s worth waiting 4 sooooo long, whether it is d orkut wali or sum1 u have met in person.
Keep writing, im gttng addicted 2 reading ur intellectually stimulating pieces n commenting on thm.

Banvri said...

I can understand your state of mind :) cus few days back even I had this kinda dream ( not a girl proposing me :P )


and I still love to dream that dream with open eyes :)

Kalindi Sharma said...

Get a girlfriend :)
now that you have fallen in Love with LOVE :P

selva ganapathy said...

:) Darshan... wanted to just record the memory :D.... I'm successful in penning down romance too :P.. abhi "Orange and Green theory"... nice topic dude.. will pen down something a few months down the line :D...

Gouri!, I'm happy that my blogs are intellectual and you've addicted to read and comment on them...got a fan for me :D... and yes as you said its not worth waiting but its different ball game according to me....

banvri.... agar if you had a dream then pen that down na...

Kalindi... read the title.. I've not even mentioned that the day I loved love.. its only the couple of hours... it doesn't mean that I should get a girl friend.

The Innocent Brute said...

Well, I dont know you much sir, but the little I have known I was sure, this had to come.
What with all the good work you had been doing.....if you can love every human being around you then it was just a matter of time, when you realized there is someone you actually LOVE more than anyone.

Guess this is a wake up call and time for you to step out of the childhood infatuations and give a try to LOVE out of your dreams.....


It was actually great reading your blog....carry on the good work!

selva ganapathy said...

Thanks Siddharth!,
I just had a dream which was quite unusual and just wanted to record it off... so blogged it down... I'm not sure of how feasible it would be in real...but time might decide the rest :)

Keep visiting lot of recipe's are yet to be cooked here.

Raj said...

Ha ha .. I keep having these kinda dreams with a little more mush :D ... Imagine how that is :P .. Chalo I can surely understand what you felt and I would also love to recreate this as a short story sumtime after finishing my book :D

selva ganapathy said...

Arun tumhe istarah ka dream aaya tho usmi naya nahi hai :D.... lekhin mujhe aaya aaur meine mehsoos kiya tho usme farakh hai :D.... hope you understand :P...

Good that you are willing to pendown this in a better way.. expecting it soon :D.

Iniyal said...

hey selva......... so what about the gals face, u might surely remember that face na..... comeon yar, good dream.

selva ganapathy said...

Indhu!,
I do know the girls face and her name also.. I didn't want to disclose it.... but I liked the dream really :D